The beginning or the end…
I think for a long time my body and soul have been disconnected. My soul has been trying for a while now to tell me that something is not in alignment. After years of medical diagnosis and even transitioning to more functional health practices my mind, body and soul have still not found peace. I’ve cycled through jobs, done so many medical exams, tried diets and exercise, and spent time to focus more on self care. These are all the stepping stones I have needed to take on my path to get me to where I am today.
About a year ago, I was really struggling with my mental health and knew that medical assistance was not going to help me solve anything. I sought out alternative resources to help me find an outlet. Outside of learning to make more time for myself and focus on setting boundaries and learning to say no for my own mental stability, I knew I needed more.
I saw a Facebook group post of a women introducing herself and her business (Truth.Beauty.Life.) offering energy healing facials and reiki. I was intrigued and decided to treat myself to a birthday self care appointment. I went in not knowing what to expect or what to do, but somehow I felt open to this new experience. She made the space very comfortable and allowed me to open up about the emotions and circumstances I was dealing with. After the session, she relayed to me the things that she felt and saw during the session and almost immediately I felt a sense of relief that I wasn’t going crazy and that something inside me was stirring. In talking with her about the things going on in my life that were contributing to a lot of my mental instability she was able to help me better understand what my mind, body and soul have been trying to tell me…that my soul has a higher purpose and I just have to be willing to be receiving of what I am being told and shown. Releasing some anxiety and stress, understanding why some of my ailments are arising stronger than before, and being able to openly communicate with someone who has been through similar change herself was a blessing.
I’ve added energy healing sessions as a regular part of my monthly routine, but it has transformed into so much more than just a release of the temporary issues arising in life but rather the start of my journey to find my higher purpose and fulfillment for my soul. I work with Lisa more regularly to talk out what I am feeling or dealing with and how to channel my own energies or using the necessary tools (i.e. meditation, sound healing, energy healing, stones, oracle cards) to help guide me. I am learning to reconnect with a higher power and feel stronger in my own self. We have “Soulful Sunday” sessions of walks through nature or sound healing outside. I have started to feel a change and have opened myself up to accept what’s coming and to embrace the new.
There are always so many transitions in life - childhood, teenage years, college life, to young adulthood. At each crossroad I feel that I have faced challenges and difficulties, but somehow make it through stronger and more aware. I feel that sometimes we forget that besides childhood, parenthood, etc. there are other phases in life to consider as well, on a spiritual level. I’ve always learned that we want to be liberated from the cycle of rebirth and in some ways I feel that I’m having rebirth during this lifetime. This renewal of life is helping me to find my place, to contribute to the awakening that is happening in the world right now, but even more so to find the liberation for my soul. Its not an easy path to follow and I am not quite there yet, but I feel that I have the support, intentions, awareness and acceptance for the change and am opening myself up to this new world. I hope to continue to share what I learn and my continuous journey, in the hopes that it inspires someone else to take the steps they need to bring happiness and peace back into their lives.
Sometimes we need to step away from what we think is the “norm” and just focus on what makes us feel present and at ease. We forget that we have to be open to change, because as we grow and learn, we build and accept new values, we have to adapt to what we feel is right for us in any given phase of our lives. Sometimes the things that were appropriate or right as a child no longer apply, and that’s okay but we have to be willing to accept that and make the necessary changes to stand in our power and become the person we are meant to be. Its not easy, but knowing that there are others out there who are on the same journey and there to help you makes a huge difference. Don’t shy away from change, be open to the possibilities that are out there, because you never know where it may guide you. Sometimes you need to find the beginning to find the end.
